garsh

I'd like to say things are going better, but they really aren't. I'm still a LOT confused about the purpose of going back to school. I mean, I'm doing horrifically -- imo. Everyone says I'm being WAY too hard on myself. Maybe so, but it's SOOOO hard not doing as well as, well...as I think I should be doing...period.

I'm almost at the point where I don't care about trying. That's NOT where I really want to be. The semester is just about over and I have, at the most, two more weeks. I need to hold on and press on! I can do it, but it will be by the skin of my teeth. I just don't know....aargh! The war inside me is raging and I'm not sure how to find balance. I keep praying for clarity --- oh, I'm so frustrated.

On a lighter note -- the walkway is shoveled and I don't have to worry about pushing any more snow. Talk about a first snow! What a doozey! Anyway -- we had a snow day yesterday (Mon) from school and that was nice.

The house is all decorated for Christmas and that cheers me up tremendously. I have dear Kara's wedding to look forward to, even if I haven't the vaguest idea what to get her and Ben -- eek! I know she'll be pleased with anything -- that's the way she is. Classy dame, that! :) I miss seeing her more often. I think I took teaching her for granted. She's a joy!

I think I'll get on LL Bean's website now and order my brother his present. It's not much, but it's on his "list" which makes me know he'll like this. Why can't everyone be 'easy to shop for'???

Off to finish (or at least start) homework...