it's been a while

I can't believe it's been this long since I updated my blog. There's been some good things and bad. I wish that the bad didn't include things financial, but it does and therefore I'll have to roll with the punches.

I hate finding out that I'll have to pay taxes this year. I was extremely disappointed. I have NO idea how I'm going to pay them. I don't have a pot to pee in, let alone the money to buy the necessities of life. I have an oil bill that cannot seem to get below $1000 and my CMP bill came in at over $100! Talk about a shock. The first thing I did was break down and bawled. I can't believe that this is happening...again. The story of my life, folks.

While trying not to be completely depressed about my financial woes, I DO have a happy note. I've been talking with someone (yes, a boy) and we "hung" out via online (yes, we chat -- 6 mos. now -- funny how time flies) most of the day yesterday talking and playing games. Sounds crazy I'm sure, but it was very nice and just what I needed. He always makes me smile and I enjoy his company, such as it can be since he lives across the country (till spring, that is). He really is a nice man. One day at a time....

The main thing I'm trying to do is trust God...period. Nothing takes Him by surprise, as it shouldn't me either. Unfortunately, I DO get sideswiped and I fail miserably at the trust thing. I can only hope that I'll surrender what fear I need to sooner than I have in the past. Whoever thought living by faith was easy.... send 'em over -- I'll set 'em straight spit-spot!

Oh yeah -- and I'm trying to stay afloat in school too. Not an easy task along with working and silly work study that is supposed to be helping me pay for school and actually pays my other bills. (sigh)

Hope to stay current from now on, but life has a way of taking over sometimes. Nevertheless, I will try. :) Off to finish watching The Mummy -- a movie that never fails to put me into a good mood.