rethinking

I believe it's time to rethink my course of action regarding school and maybe even my life.

I'm struggling so much with school (no surprise if you've been reading my blog) that I'm beginning to wonder if it's what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm confused mostly. I believed by the way it all worked out that going back was the "right thing" for me to do. I mean, everything worked out -- money, time, scheduling, etc. How could I not take that as a "sign?" So, I went forward with it and it all started out OK. I mean, I did horribly at first with a couple quizzes, but bounced back, or seemed to. I took a bit of hope with me from then on until it seemed I was steadily doing badly -- in my opinion.

Now, at the end of the semester, I'm still not doing really well. Does this mean the entire semester is wasted? A lesson (if so, what?). A realization that I really am a complete idiot? Whatever the reason, it feels like a waste of money and time.

Questions that have come up:

What does this serve?
Is there a purpose? if so, what?
Did I miss the entire point of what I was really supposed to be doing/learning?
Did I totally misread the "signs" I thought were leading me into the direction of going back to school in the first place?
Do I keep going in spite of how I appear to be doing?

I just don't know....I hope I find out soon. I am certainly going to finish this semester, but I'm honestly not sure about continuing. It just seems, as I stated before, a waste. It would just help to know once and for all.

How do I move on? :::sigh:::