That's Enough

I scream, I sigh
Frustration runs high
I don't understand the part of God's plan
That seems to be passing me by.

I cannot explain
The amount of this pain
I feel in the depths of my soul.
I reason it out
Twist it about
And find I've lost sight of the goal.

I'm a bird in a box
In the hunt I'm the fox,
I'm running as fast as I can.
What is it I want?
Life seems such a taunt
I've run where I've already ran.

There's got to be something I just haven't done,
There's got to be something I haven't begun,
There's something I've missed,
A part I've dismissed
A race that will never be won.

But, what can it be
That still eludes me
Of the part God wants me to see?

Is it realizing yet, that all I will get
While struggling here all alone
Is that God is still here
He's standing so near
And He loves me as one of His own?

Oh, the fight I put up
For what? I don't know.
Is it worth all the pain?
What is it I gain?

My life on this earth is a breath, just a vapor
And things here will all fade away
I know that God cares
He IS always aware
Of the things I need everyday.

I wish it were easy and not quite so tough
But the roads in my life are stony and rough
And when I think I can't stand anymore,
God holds me and says:
"That's Enough"


~~mara 1996