headache

Today feels like it will be a long one. I've got another migraine and I'm not looking forward to going anywhere today.

Theory class intimidates me to no end. I'm not sure if I can do this. I keep reminding myself that I'm not responsible to know what I was never taught, but it doesn't help when I'm sitting in class and all these young whippersnappers know all the lingo.

I've been dealing with strong emotions toward my own music teacher way back when I was in school. Why didn't she teach us these things? How do I know how to play instruments and NOT know these things which should be elementary? Circle of 5ths? What the heck is that? I never heard of it until last year when I was volunteering at the high school! It's embarrassing to say the least! Why should it be? Because, after all the years my life has been consumed by music, I know absolutely nothing and it's painful.

I will just have to talk with my professor outside of class to see if there's anything else that will help me learn what I need to to be up to speed with the rest of the class. AARGH!