Tonight was one of the hardest I’ve had in a long time. Nothing traumatic, life-threatening or end-of-the-world-ish …except that my mother, for the first time, did not remember me. She didn’t remember that I was her daughter. I thought she was joking when she asked me how I knew my cousin and, “are you really part of the family?” ….she was not joking…. I don’t know when something has hit me so hard. I can weather through crisis after crisis and crumble a little when no one is watching but this time, this time there is no end and there is nothing that will make it better. I kept telling myself that this wasn’t going to happen and hoping it was true. I cannot put into words the loss and pain I feel. Please, God. Please help us love her the way she needs it…no matter what!